Hang in there - you are describing the eternal plight of the artist. How to balance what we have to do to live in order to have the resources to make our art. Never an easy thing. Good luck.
I know the feeling all to well. Sometimes the need to create and birth something grows and grows inside you until you all but burst. Life seems to get in the way too often, doesn't it?
yeah bro. i've got a music baby-head poking out.